So Monkey's first week of school is almost over! She has really had a great time and I am amazed at what she has learned in only two days. It is so wonderful and exciting to see her growing up and making friends, it's also sad to know she's growing up and won't be Mommy's little girl as she once was. It's all part of life though!
So is our future endevors. This time next week we will know where we will be living and where Soapy will be working. Today was especially hard for me to come to grips with the fact that the outcome of his bidding process at work is going to take us back to Texas. We cleaned out the storage shed today. I know that doesn't sound exciting or traumatic but it was in a way. I had to go through things of Monkeys that she is no longer interested in or newborn and maternity clothes that I will never be able to use again. I got a call from my dance instructor about meeting to go over the next semester of dance at the studio. I teach for her and she really does not want me to leave.
I am realizing that I am two weeks away from a major change and I don't do well as major changes approach. My dad tonight gave me a hug and kiss and all I could think to do after that was sit down at his piano and just "touch" the keys. I didn't play them, no I just sat and ran my fingers across the smooth, worn keys that my dad, grandfather and great grandmother once played. It allowed me to be close to them all and I am truly afraid to leave my dad for fear of another heart attack hitting him. We had such plans of how to make up for lost time in our relationship. We tried and I have to say we are closer and got to do special things between the two of us that I will cherish but there just doesn't seem to be enough time. There are too many things that I wanted to do with him, that I wanted to do with my mom, that I wanted my husband and I to do with the kids here. I am not ready to leave. I am not ready for the increased stress that awaits us once we move.
I am just not ready for any of this, the move, leaving my family again, moving back to more stress and I most certainly am not ready for my daughter to turn 5 and be in school or my son to nearly approach his 9 month mark next week. I am just not ready, but I know God will help me get through it and be ready as long as I stay focused on Him. Please let me stay focused on You!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
School Days
School days, School days.....Well I am about to embark on a new journey with my daughter. Next Tuesday she starts KINDERGARDEN!!!!!!! I can't believe it! Since when did she get to be 5? When did I tell her she was allowed to grow up and start school. I told my husband as we shopped for school clothes that before we knew it we would be shopping for the undergarments that were hanging next to us. He was not happy.
I took Monkey to the school this morning to see if we could meet her teacher. They don't have her class assignment yet but we were able to see the front office and I left a number and message for the school councelor to discuss her anxiety. She walked away pretty excited though. She found the nurses station (just like I told her there would be....you know, in the event she needs a bandaid). We also found out that...wait for it........wait for it.......... WAIT FOR IT..............
I GET TO GO WITH HER FOR HER FIRST DAY!!!!!!!
I know this is probably not a huge headline but for a mom and daughter that have been seperated very little in her life, this was great news to both of us. She was relieved that her first day she won't be alone and I was relieved that her first day I would not be all alone without her. Plus, it's only 2 hours the first day, 4 hours the second day and then after that she is full time....6 1/2 hours!!!
I think this will be a great transition time for us. It will also save me from buying every lunch box item I can find at the grocery store just to make going to school fun and loaded with surprises during the day....I went a little overboard. Oh well!
So, we will make it through this new adventure. I will more than likely find a few new grey hairs and hold onto her a little longer while we snuggle and read her Princess Devotion book. Gone are the days of complete innosense and carefree play.....my little girl is growing up. :)
I took Monkey to the school this morning to see if we could meet her teacher. They don't have her class assignment yet but we were able to see the front office and I left a number and message for the school councelor to discuss her anxiety. She walked away pretty excited though. She found the nurses station (just like I told her there would be....you know, in the event she needs a bandaid). We also found out that...wait for it........wait for it.......... WAIT FOR IT..............
I GET TO GO WITH HER FOR HER FIRST DAY!!!!!!!
I know this is probably not a huge headline but for a mom and daughter that have been seperated very little in her life, this was great news to both of us. She was relieved that her first day she won't be alone and I was relieved that her first day I would not be all alone without her. Plus, it's only 2 hours the first day, 4 hours the second day and then after that she is full time....6 1/2 hours!!!
I think this will be a great transition time for us. It will also save me from buying every lunch box item I can find at the grocery store just to make going to school fun and loaded with surprises during the day....I went a little overboard. Oh well!
So, we will make it through this new adventure. I will more than likely find a few new grey hairs and hold onto her a little longer while we snuggle and read her Princess Devotion book. Gone are the days of complete innosense and carefree play.....my little girl is growing up. :)
Monday, August 10, 2009
Not Me Monday
Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.
So this has been an eventful week! It did not begin with me trying...scratch that...desperately attempting to get an adjustment at my chiropractors with my eighth month old sitting on my stomach. I did not feed him puff cereal throughout the time I was there just to keep him from screaming.
I did not later in the week use baby wipes to bathe me and my two precious children because I was too tired to bend over the side of the bathtub and try to convince my son that eating bubbles really is not a good idea.
I most certainly did not let my son crawl around the public park in his birthday suit because we ran out of diapers and didn't have the heart to tell my daughter we had to leave. I certainly did not watch him as he pulled grass out of the ground and stick it in his mouth....and not do anything about it because he was happy. Above all I did not let my daughter take off her socks and shoes and run around the duck pond all over the duck feces or use her tennis shoes to scoop up sand and throw it all over the merry-go-round. I always keep my children clean, freshly dressed and pressed, never to I let them behave like this....NOT ME!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
He is SO Wonderful
God is so amazing! Yesterday Stellan went home; a week ago the doctors weren't sure how to reverse what looked like a very serious situation, the family had been called in and my heart broke for him and his family. Not only was his recovery so miraculous, but I am so in awe at how God works to bring people together. I know my eyes were opened.
I have been praying, not quite as faithfully as I should or want to, but I have been praying. I have prayed that God would direct me to His path for me. Not for my family or for my husband or for us together, but for MY calling. I LOVE LOVE LOVE being a mom and being able to stay at home with my children teaching them and loving on them but I have still felt incomplete. I have a feeling of emptiness inside my heart that I know is meant to be filled by God. My dad and I were doing a bible study and the subject of his study said that he knew at the end of his life that he had nothing left to give, nothing left to do for the Lord. He knew that he had followed God's calling for him and had reached out whenever he had an opportunity and touched others with God's love. I WANT THAT!!!!!! I want to know at the end of my life that I have done everything I could for God. That I resembled Him to others.
I have been searching for how to serve God. I love children and want to help with them. Through Stellan's story I have decided to volunteer at the Children's Hospital and the NICU here in town. Our family has been touched by both of these places and I want to give back to them. I am also searching out ways to help with women who have suffered miscarriages and also how to help with adoption agencies or orphanages.
As this past week progressed I saw how many people were praying for Stellan and his family. I saw how his journey spurred me to become more faithful in my time with God. I look forward to my time with Him, reading, praying, just sitting quietly. It's been great and I have been amazed at how many people God touched through Stellan's struggles this week.
He is truly truly wonderful!!!!!
I have been praying, not quite as faithfully as I should or want to, but I have been praying. I have prayed that God would direct me to His path for me. Not for my family or for my husband or for us together, but for MY calling. I LOVE LOVE LOVE being a mom and being able to stay at home with my children teaching them and loving on them but I have still felt incomplete. I have a feeling of emptiness inside my heart that I know is meant to be filled by God. My dad and I were doing a bible study and the subject of his study said that he knew at the end of his life that he had nothing left to give, nothing left to do for the Lord. He knew that he had followed God's calling for him and had reached out whenever he had an opportunity and touched others with God's love. I WANT THAT!!!!!! I want to know at the end of my life that I have done everything I could for God. That I resembled Him to others.
I have been searching for how to serve God. I love children and want to help with them. Through Stellan's story I have decided to volunteer at the Children's Hospital and the NICU here in town. Our family has been touched by both of these places and I want to give back to them. I am also searching out ways to help with women who have suffered miscarriages and also how to help with adoption agencies or orphanages.
As this past week progressed I saw how many people were praying for Stellan and his family. I saw how his journey spurred me to become more faithful in my time with God. I look forward to my time with Him, reading, praying, just sitting quietly. It's been great and I have been amazed at how many people God touched through Stellan's struggles this week.
He is truly truly wonderful!!!!!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Please pray for Stellan. He is a little boy that is nearly the same age as Breadon. He is adorable and is having major health problems. He was born with heart problems and up until now they have been able to control it with meds but as of late they don't want to work anymore. He went in Friday to start a new drug, have it adjusted and monitored and then would be sent home. He has not done well AT ALL. He is hanging in there but he's had a heart rate near 220 since Friday. His body is fighting so hard but he needs some miraculous help. Please pray for him, his family and his mom, MckMama. She is amazing but is human and needs God's unshakable strength. Their site is www.mycharmingkids.net and she's also on Twitter under MckMama.
Monday, July 6, 2009
So this past three weeks has gone by so quickly and I feel horrible for not blogging about it but a computer was not coming on the beach with me! :)
We took a big family vacation out to Charleston, SC and down to see some friends in Georgia. We left on June 16th and didn't come back until June 29th. It was a blast! The kids absolutely loved the ocean and playing in the sand. Braedon certainly did not eat two fist fulls of sand and Caileigh did not enjoy chasing the crabs around the beach (because secretly if she didn't chase them she feared they would chase her). Mom and Dad rented a beach villa and we overlooked the Ise Of Palms sand and it was so beautiful! My sister and her husband live not too far from where we stayed so they came out early in the morning with their dog Oscar to play on the beach and after work to play with us in the water.
The first week, I flew out with the kids on my own and we went to Georgia to visit some friends of ours that we had made while in the Navy. Their kids are the same age as our two so the four of them had a blast playing together and we enjoyed catching up. It has been way too long!
June 20th I headed back to Charleston with the kiddos to pick Soapy up from the airport. We all headed to the beach and got settled in. We took the first night out and went to a local Mexican restaurant and relaxed out on the porch listening to the waves. We went to Seacoast church, one of the most amazing churches we have ever been a part of. We used to be members there when we lived in Charleston and couldn't wait to go back and see how much it has grown. For anyone interested, the website is http://www.seacoast.org/ . Among many reasons we would LOVE to move back is for that church. Caileigh has so much fun in the Kidscoast and hated to leave.
We spent the days on the beach, swimming in the pool, walking around downtown around the Market and the Battery.
Wednesday Soapy, me and the kids headed back down to Georgia so Soapy could spend some time with our friends. We took the night and went to Jacksonville and walked the Landing downtown. We took the ferry boat around the harbor and the kids really had fun with that. That night the kids played until the passed out, the babies slept and the older boys played video games until 4:30am! What did the girls do??? We crashed eventually with the babies in the master bed, we couldn't hang with the boys any longer!!
Thursday we said our goodbyes, sadly, and went back to Charleston. It was great to be with old friends that are just like family but we also wanted to have more time in Charleston. That night Soapy finished his school finals, for another term of 4.0!!!! Way to go Honey!!!
The last few days of our trip flew by and we hated to leave but our puppies and kitties missed us and work doesn't wait! Through prayer and patiently waiting on God, we pray he reveals a way for us to comfortably move back to Charleston some time in our lives.
Since getting back we have been packed full of me teaching dance, Soapy working and the kids getting shots for school and Braedon's sixth month shots. No fun for the kids or me, I hate when they cry.
On a positive note, Breadon started crawling June 30th! June 29th I found him sitting in his crib, that is the first time he has pushed himself up, June 30th he started crawling through the living room and July 1st I found him standing up holding onto the side of his crib! Time to break out the child gates and outlet covers!!!!
On a prayerful note, please pray for my family. My grandparents are in alot of pain and each are struggling with different physical ailments from back and knee problems to cancer and back surgeries. They are each looking at needing surgeries and the doctors aren't sure if they will make it through the procedures and to be honest they are wanting it to just be over, even if that means dying. My mom is trying to care for them and is emotionally torn and exhuasted. Also, a little boy that I have been following, Stellan, is having more problems with his heart. You can follow his story on http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ but he is the same age as Braedon. His mom has a wonderful blog about their family and Stellan's progression. His heart though is needing a lot of prayers of heeling. He is definitely going to need another surgery which will most likely end in a pacemaker being put in. Right now they are trying to keep him stable with meds and it is hard on his body and not working all the time. Please pray for him and his family. One more prayer and then I will stop asking for prayers...please pray for us. Soapy is reaching his two year mark with the railroad in two weeks. He has to bid on a new position by the 17th of July. We aren't sure where to go. Our house in Texas is still not rented or sold. We are going to try putting it back up for sale but we don't know where God is calling us. We can't stay here without the house being taken care of because we cannot pay for a mortgage and rent. We really want to move back to the coast, ideally Charleston area but we cannot do that until he has his degree and the house is sold. Please pray that God would show us a light to our path and gives us the discernment to make the right decisions.
Well, I think that is it for now!!!!! As soon as I can find my camera chord I will post some wonderful pictures of the trip and recent happenings of the kiddos.
Love you and God bless!!!!
We took a big family vacation out to Charleston, SC and down to see some friends in Georgia. We left on June 16th and didn't come back until June 29th. It was a blast! The kids absolutely loved the ocean and playing in the sand. Braedon certainly did not eat two fist fulls of sand and Caileigh did not enjoy chasing the crabs around the beach (because secretly if she didn't chase them she feared they would chase her). Mom and Dad rented a beach villa and we overlooked the Ise Of Palms sand and it was so beautiful! My sister and her husband live not too far from where we stayed so they came out early in the morning with their dog Oscar to play on the beach and after work to play with us in the water.
The first week, I flew out with the kids on my own and we went to Georgia to visit some friends of ours that we had made while in the Navy. Their kids are the same age as our two so the four of them had a blast playing together and we enjoyed catching up. It has been way too long!
June 20th I headed back to Charleston with the kiddos to pick Soapy up from the airport. We all headed to the beach and got settled in. We took the first night out and went to a local Mexican restaurant and relaxed out on the porch listening to the waves. We went to Seacoast church, one of the most amazing churches we have ever been a part of. We used to be members there when we lived in Charleston and couldn't wait to go back and see how much it has grown. For anyone interested, the website is http://www.seacoast.org/ . Among many reasons we would LOVE to move back is for that church. Caileigh has so much fun in the Kidscoast and hated to leave.
We spent the days on the beach, swimming in the pool, walking around downtown around the Market and the Battery.
Wednesday Soapy, me and the kids headed back down to Georgia so Soapy could spend some time with our friends. We took the night and went to Jacksonville and walked the Landing downtown. We took the ferry boat around the harbor and the kids really had fun with that. That night the kids played until the passed out, the babies slept and the older boys played video games until 4:30am! What did the girls do??? We crashed eventually with the babies in the master bed, we couldn't hang with the boys any longer!!
Thursday we said our goodbyes, sadly, and went back to Charleston. It was great to be with old friends that are just like family but we also wanted to have more time in Charleston. That night Soapy finished his school finals, for another term of 4.0!!!! Way to go Honey!!!
The last few days of our trip flew by and we hated to leave but our puppies and kitties missed us and work doesn't wait! Through prayer and patiently waiting on God, we pray he reveals a way for us to comfortably move back to Charleston some time in our lives.
Since getting back we have been packed full of me teaching dance, Soapy working and the kids getting shots for school and Braedon's sixth month shots. No fun for the kids or me, I hate when they cry.
On a positive note, Breadon started crawling June 30th! June 29th I found him sitting in his crib, that is the first time he has pushed himself up, June 30th he started crawling through the living room and July 1st I found him standing up holding onto the side of his crib! Time to break out the child gates and outlet covers!!!!
On a prayerful note, please pray for my family. My grandparents are in alot of pain and each are struggling with different physical ailments from back and knee problems to cancer and back surgeries. They are each looking at needing surgeries and the doctors aren't sure if they will make it through the procedures and to be honest they are wanting it to just be over, even if that means dying. My mom is trying to care for them and is emotionally torn and exhuasted. Also, a little boy that I have been following, Stellan, is having more problems with his heart. You can follow his story on http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ but he is the same age as Braedon. His mom has a wonderful blog about their family and Stellan's progression. His heart though is needing a lot of prayers of heeling. He is definitely going to need another surgery which will most likely end in a pacemaker being put in. Right now they are trying to keep him stable with meds and it is hard on his body and not working all the time. Please pray for him and his family. One more prayer and then I will stop asking for prayers...please pray for us. Soapy is reaching his two year mark with the railroad in two weeks. He has to bid on a new position by the 17th of July. We aren't sure where to go. Our house in Texas is still not rented or sold. We are going to try putting it back up for sale but we don't know where God is calling us. We can't stay here without the house being taken care of because we cannot pay for a mortgage and rent. We really want to move back to the coast, ideally Charleston area but we cannot do that until he has his degree and the house is sold. Please pray that God would show us a light to our path and gives us the discernment to make the right decisions.
Well, I think that is it for now!!!!! As soon as I can find my camera chord I will post some wonderful pictures of the trip and recent happenings of the kiddos.
Love you and God bless!!!!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Busy Busy
I don't know where the week has gone. I remember it being last week and wondering how I was going to get through the next 10 days until we leave for our trip. Monkey has been in VBS all week and she loved it! She was so sad to see it end but we had a wonderful conversation yesterday over Olive Garden about salvation and what baptism is for...why it's important. What a set of questions coming from a 4 year old!!
In other news we got great news from the allergist yesterday! Braedon has been without blood in his diaper for over two months!!!! This past week we have corrected his food intake and he has gained weight appropriately. His eczema has been clear since his bout of croup and ear infections. The doc said he only had a bit of fluid left in his ears but the redness is gone and most of the fluid is gone as well. He is still having a whole lot of pain with his teeth and his sleeping pattern at night has been very inconsistent but I am hoping that his teeth coming in will resolve that. We are trying some natural pain releavers to see if that and the tylenol will help. We got the clear for me to try adding soy into my diet and see how Breadon reacts. I am praying he handles it ok so maybe we can be over all of this blood and discomfort.
Life amazes me. What people will do for one another and the simple things people overlook doing for one another. A simple act of kindness, holding the door open or helping someone with their bags can mean so much to a person who is walking a rough road. I watch my daughter and her thoughtless love she pours out to others, even people she has never met. She is only 4 and she offers to open doors, hold the elevator for the lady walking up with her children; it brings tears to my eyes. If nothing else, I feel I am accomplished for leading her to God and allowing him to take over her heart. There is no way to say for certain that she will continue down this path the rest of her life and it most certainly will not be perfect but I have planted the seed and that is all He asks us to do.
I love my Lord and my children it literally pains me and brings me to tears. I would not give one day to change where I am today.
Good night :)
In other news we got great news from the allergist yesterday! Braedon has been without blood in his diaper for over two months!!!! This past week we have corrected his food intake and he has gained weight appropriately. His eczema has been clear since his bout of croup and ear infections. The doc said he only had a bit of fluid left in his ears but the redness is gone and most of the fluid is gone as well. He is still having a whole lot of pain with his teeth and his sleeping pattern at night has been very inconsistent but I am hoping that his teeth coming in will resolve that. We are trying some natural pain releavers to see if that and the tylenol will help. We got the clear for me to try adding soy into my diet and see how Breadon reacts. I am praying he handles it ok so maybe we can be over all of this blood and discomfort.
Life amazes me. What people will do for one another and the simple things people overlook doing for one another. A simple act of kindness, holding the door open or helping someone with their bags can mean so much to a person who is walking a rough road. I watch my daughter and her thoughtless love she pours out to others, even people she has never met. She is only 4 and she offers to open doors, hold the elevator for the lady walking up with her children; it brings tears to my eyes. If nothing else, I feel I am accomplished for leading her to God and allowing him to take over her heart. There is no way to say for certain that she will continue down this path the rest of her life and it most certainly will not be perfect but I have planted the seed and that is all He asks us to do.
I love my Lord and my children it literally pains me and brings me to tears. I would not give one day to change where I am today.
Good night :)
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