Well, it's official, I am now the proud Mama to a curious little toddler! Braedon started walking a day or two before Christmas and then last week just took off! As soon as I can find my camera chord (is it bad I still don't have everything unpacked from our trip?) I will post some picks of my proud little man.
He loves walking all over and feels so accomplished. He is excited about the freedom he has and ability to chase his sister a little faster now than crawling after her. The two of them have had a blast this week taking turns chasing each other through the house. Today he walked with me up to the school to pick up Caileigh and he LOVED it! I am so proud of him!
The down side to walking isn't his ability to get into things (that was happening before hand) but that he has all together stopped nursing. sniff sniff I am not ready for this but none the less it is here. He has broken away, our snuggle times at night and in the morning are over and it's heart breaking! I will never get to feel that again and now I have to bribe him with pretzels and carrots for a kiss! Hey, what's a Mama to do??? Atleast he gives me a kiss! :)
I have to give a HUGE thank you to my friend Keely for sending me a pair of Robeez shoes after I won a contest on her blog! They are super cute and Braedon loves them!
Well, I am heading to bed. Have a wonderful Wednesday!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Overwhelmed
This is turning out to be a frustrating start to the New Year; I knew we should have gone out that night to ensure good luck for the coming year...instead of waking at 1130 only to look at eachother and seriously contemplating turning off the tv and just going to bed. But we didn't, we stayed up, watched the ball drop as we got ready for bed and then shortly thereafter hit the sack. Sad!
But today, I am frustrated and overwhelmed. My dad, as of Thursday, will most likely be out of a job. This presents a lot of stress as we are living with them at the moment. He asked me last night to start getting our things "in order" as we may all be moving out very shortly. We would move back to Texas and thus Soapy would commute from Fort Worth every other week for work to Colorado (or as it stands, Green River Utah--YUCK!). That would be the plan until he can find something new. It would also mean that his "6days off--which really is 5" would turn into 3 or 4 depending on the drive he had to make. Not exciting. at. all!
I am supposed to be starting three new dance classes and beginning a small business in dance themed birthday parties very soon. This would obviously not be a goot thing to start if we are leaving the area. I don't want to leave this way, so quickly, like in the next three weeks. It is too much work, too much stress and mostly too much trauma for Caileigh. She broke into tears on me last week when something was brought up about leaving my parents. I don't know what to do.
We had an offer on our house, it was humiliating and this afternoon I found out that our counter offer will not work. We lost the buyer; I don't think she was really interested anyways. This market sucks! As listed we are losing $5k that we have to bring to closing just to zero out the mortgage, that isn't touching what the value of the house is at. The buyer wanted to offer $12k below that! We just can't do it....it looks like we have to move back. I am going to HAVE to get a permanant job and as it looks I will be getting my teacher's certification. This is ok and I am looking forward to being out of debt. I just hate not being able to care for my own children. I hate not being there when they get out of school (not to mention I am more and more compelled to home school but for obvious reasons that would not work).
I am super SUPER excited for my friend's news about her new pregnancy! It is amazing and God is blessing her and her family in so many ways right now. She is living out the desires I have in my heart. Please go to her blog and see how she is following God's call to Kenya on a blogging missions trip with Compassion International. --The flip side to being overjoyed and totally excited is the pain I am feeling. I want to be doing this kind of missions work; it's what I feel called to be a part of but at the moment I don't know how for several reasons. I am also in pain over wanting another child; honestly I would love to have maybe two more children. The painful truth is without some MAJOR divine intervention to reverse my hubby's little..um...procedure, we will never be able to experience the joys of pregnancy again. This makes me sad. I so want atleast one more and was not ready to make this a permanant decision but he was ready. I am trying to come to terms with this.
So today I am experiencing a lot of overwhelming feelings, not very productive and really wanting to just go back to bed and begin a new day....praying tomorrow is better...or the next day, seeing as tomorrow I got to the dentist.
But today, I am frustrated and overwhelmed. My dad, as of Thursday, will most likely be out of a job. This presents a lot of stress as we are living with them at the moment. He asked me last night to start getting our things "in order" as we may all be moving out very shortly. We would move back to Texas and thus Soapy would commute from Fort Worth every other week for work to Colorado (or as it stands, Green River Utah--YUCK!). That would be the plan until he can find something new. It would also mean that his "6days off--which really is 5" would turn into 3 or 4 depending on the drive he had to make. Not exciting. at. all!
I am supposed to be starting three new dance classes and beginning a small business in dance themed birthday parties very soon. This would obviously not be a goot thing to start if we are leaving the area. I don't want to leave this way, so quickly, like in the next three weeks. It is too much work, too much stress and mostly too much trauma for Caileigh. She broke into tears on me last week when something was brought up about leaving my parents. I don't know what to do.
We had an offer on our house, it was humiliating and this afternoon I found out that our counter offer will not work. We lost the buyer; I don't think she was really interested anyways. This market sucks! As listed we are losing $5k that we have to bring to closing just to zero out the mortgage, that isn't touching what the value of the house is at. The buyer wanted to offer $12k below that! We just can't do it....it looks like we have to move back. I am going to HAVE to get a permanant job and as it looks I will be getting my teacher's certification. This is ok and I am looking forward to being out of debt. I just hate not being able to care for my own children. I hate not being there when they get out of school (not to mention I am more and more compelled to home school but for obvious reasons that would not work).
I am super SUPER excited for my friend's news about her new pregnancy! It is amazing and God is blessing her and her family in so many ways right now. She is living out the desires I have in my heart. Please go to her blog and see how she is following God's call to Kenya on a blogging missions trip with Compassion International. --The flip side to being overjoyed and totally excited is the pain I am feeling. I want to be doing this kind of missions work; it's what I feel called to be a part of but at the moment I don't know how for several reasons. I am also in pain over wanting another child; honestly I would love to have maybe two more children. The painful truth is without some MAJOR divine intervention to reverse my hubby's little..um...procedure, we will never be able to experience the joys of pregnancy again. This makes me sad. I so want atleast one more and was not ready to make this a permanant decision but he was ready. I am trying to come to terms with this.
So today I am experiencing a lot of overwhelming feelings, not very productive and really wanting to just go back to bed and begin a new day....praying tomorrow is better...or the next day, seeing as tomorrow I got to the dentist.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Mommy Blues
I have the Mommy Blues tonight. My little man started walking right before Christmas!! Two DAYS before Christmas. I am totally excited about the fact that he's walking but sad to realize my baby, my last baby is growing up. He is so sweet, so precious. I rocked him for a bit tonight and sang to him and just as I was ready to stand up, he curled up and layed his head on my chest and snuggled. I LOVE IT!!! I never want it to end.
I am sad that this will be the last time I get to do this stage. I wish so much that we could continue growing our family. I am not ready for it to end.
Caileigh is growing up too fast. She is such a wonderful big sister and has had such a wonderful time the past two weeks playing with Braedon. This new found freedom in his walking has increased the entertainment factor. I watched as they took turns chasing eachother around the house this morning just busting out in giggles as they would come around the corner. I love the giggles. I pray it never ends.
I wish Soapy could be here. I am so blessed to be able to stay home right now with them and I know that is quickly coming to an end. I wish it wouldn't. I hate that he travels so much and is gone for so much of the "moments". I hate going to bed when he's gone. The first few nights are the worst and I typically sit up until I nearly pass out. I can never relax to sleep when he's gone.
This post was much needed and doesn't begin to get me caught up from the last two weeks but I am not in the mood or have the energy to post more tonight or upload the pictures that I need to get on here. I will save that for maybe tomorrow.
I am sad that this will be the last time I get to do this stage. I wish so much that we could continue growing our family. I am not ready for it to end.
Caileigh is growing up too fast. She is such a wonderful big sister and has had such a wonderful time the past two weeks playing with Braedon. This new found freedom in his walking has increased the entertainment factor. I watched as they took turns chasing eachother around the house this morning just busting out in giggles as they would come around the corner. I love the giggles. I pray it never ends.
I wish Soapy could be here. I am so blessed to be able to stay home right now with them and I know that is quickly coming to an end. I wish it wouldn't. I hate that he travels so much and is gone for so much of the "moments". I hate going to bed when he's gone. The first few nights are the worst and I typically sit up until I nearly pass out. I can never relax to sleep when he's gone.
This post was much needed and doesn't begin to get me caught up from the last two weeks but I am not in the mood or have the energy to post more tonight or upload the pictures that I need to get on here. I will save that for maybe tomorrow.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Getting to Know You
1. Middle name?
Diane
2. What do you think is your best asset (physical)?
Smile
3. If you could only eat one type of cuisine for a year, what would it be (Mexican, American,Chinese..etc.)?
Mexican!
4. Walmart or Target?
Target
5. Favorite State besides the one you live in?
South Carolina!
6. What side of the bed do you sleep on, left or right?
Left
7. King or Queen size bed?
Queen
8. Beer or wine?
Wine
9. Water..ice-cold or room temp?
Ice-Cold
10. Christmas..love it or hate it?
Love it!
Thanks Keely! This is fun! Have a great Sunday; as long as it's better than last Sunday! lol
Diane
2. What do you think is your best asset (physical)?
Smile
3. If you could only eat one type of cuisine for a year, what would it be (Mexican, American,Chinese..etc.)?
Mexican!
4. Walmart or Target?
Target
5. Favorite State besides the one you live in?
South Carolina!
6. What side of the bed do you sleep on, left or right?
Left
7. King or Queen size bed?
Queen
8. Beer or wine?
Wine
9. Water..ice-cold or room temp?
Ice-Cold
10. Christmas..love it or hate it?
Love it!
Thanks Keely! This is fun! Have a great Sunday; as long as it's better than last Sunday! lol
Friday, December 18, 2009
Photography related giveaway
It is SO Christmas time!!! I keep finding such wonderful giveaways! This morning MckMama and Grammie Mommy posted a giveaway for Photoshop and Lightroom! Go check it out for all the details and enter for a chance to win! The contest goes until Sunday!
Good luck to you all!
Good luck to you all!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Another Giveaway!
I am finding all sorts of fun stuff to pass along today! This giveaway is so darn cute! I hope I win them for Braedon!! He would love them and maybe (wink wink) it would give him a reason to start walking for Christmas!!
Go check them out!
Go check them out!
Give for Compassion!
This is a wonderful idea! Aside from the wonderful prize being offered here, Compassion is a wonderful organization! I live not too far from their front door and have seen how they have affected many projects but also the impact they have on Colorado Springs. When I saw this contest I decided to give in addition to what I have done in the past. Please think about giving to this group, they truly use every donation and multiply it to help many!
What a wonderful Christmas gift!
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