Mommy Blues

I have the Mommy Blues tonight. My little man started walking right before Christmas!! Two DAYS before Christmas. I am totally excited about the fact that he's walking but sad to realize my baby, my last baby is growing up. He is so sweet, so precious. I rocked him for a bit tonight and sang to him and just as I was ready to stand up, he curled up and layed his head on my chest and snuggled. I LOVE IT!!! I never want it to end.
I am sad that this will be the last time I get to do this stage. I wish so much that we could continue growing our family. I am not ready for it to end.
Caileigh is growing up too fast. She is such a wonderful big sister and has had such a wonderful time the past two weeks playing with Braedon. This new found freedom in his walking has increased the entertainment factor. I watched as they took turns chasing eachother around the house this morning just busting out in giggles as they would come around the corner. I love the giggles. I pray it never ends.
I wish Soapy could be here. I am so blessed to be able to stay home right now with them and I know that is quickly coming to an end. I wish it wouldn't. I hate that he travels so much and is gone for so much of the "moments". I hate going to bed when he's gone. The first few nights are the worst and I typically sit up until I nearly pass out. I can never relax to sleep when he's gone.
This post was much needed and doesn't begin to get me caught up from the last two weeks but I am not in the mood or have the energy to post more tonight or upload the pictures that I need to get on here. I will save that for maybe tomorrow.